This Is Good...

This blog originally was meant to keep friends updated on the rad things that were going on in my life, by writing about them I wanted to include you in the moments that were life-changing, eye opening, or just plain hilarious. But as I tend to evolve and change, so did this blog. It's turned into a rather scatterbrained, slightly depressed being with a crazy streak. Sound familiar? Well it's time to go back to the essence of this blog and to tell you something that will hopefully make you think THIS IS GOOD! Here goes: After my little escapade that shall not be mentioned I was feeling pretty crappy about myself and was rather disappointed in the fact that I felt the need to indulge in such stupid desires. Thus the fact of going to bible study was kind of nerve wracking. I really was not in the mood to confront God about this. But guess who showed up, the good man upstairs decided that tonight we would be hearing about being Holy. Being set apart, sticking out like a sore thumb...

This past weekend I left behind the Amy we know and became something different. Writing this even now I am scared to type these words. I didn't indulge in anything remotely disastrous but many people in my life would not approve. Plain and simple I got drunk. I went out dancing with friends,had a bucket of laughs and for a while I hung out with some random guy who is now referred to as "Plaid shirt boy." (nothing happened don't worry) I also ended up getting my nose pierced but that was always on the agenda. The reason I decided to embark on this adventure was to see what I was missing. All of my non-christian friends weekends are filled with booze, boys, and situations that I can barely picture myself in let alone partake of in real life! And I came across something, I wasn't missing out on jack. Zip, zilch, nadda. Looking back on the weekend I had I came to this conclusion. I would have acted exactly the same if there was no booze involved, if the boys weren...

Ugh it's official the so called "love bug" has bitten and it's gettin itchy folks. I hate it when they text you and then you reply and it takes ages for them to get back to you, it's practically instantaneous people! Like c'mon. My friend D was recently engaged in one of these situations and she was all stoked on the prospect of a possible new boy in her life, until he totally crumpled that hope into a paper ball and tossed in into the garbage can by completely blowing her off. I wonder if that is what God feels like when we ignore Him. Does He pace back and forth, pulling on His hair waiting for us to reply to His text message? Does He freak out when He finally receives a reply and all it says is "K." It kind of changes my whole perspective of the situation. But for now I'm just going to relish in the fact that God never ignores us when we initiate contact, even if that super cute guy does. Damn those biceps, they get me every time.

A few weeks ago I was shopping in downtown Victoria when a girl caught my eye. She was tall, slender, with long flowy locks, and the most amazing shoes I had ever seen (GORGEOUS) We were both waiting in line to try on similar dresses, noticing this we both giggled politely. We could have been clones for we both were clad in: over sized sweaters, skinny jeans, crazy costume jewelry, and these dresses draped over our arms. As we simultaneously turned back to our shopping companions I overheard her say something about The Drums self- titled CD and I knew it was love. My mom noticed me getting all starry eyed and asked me if I knew this girl, I did not and that was the end of that. Do you ever have those moments? A random conversation with a cashier or an accidental hip check with the person beside you in the Mall and boom there is an instant connection. It doesn't have to be an attraction but you just cannot get this person out of your mind, you've developed a friend-crush. Eve...

Holy poop I am in love... again. You guessed it, with the one and only Aidan Knight. His newest endeavour titled "Friendly Fires" has left me encumbered with the duty of telling all of you about it's greatness. So here goes, (insert sing song voice) IT'S GREAT! Now if you are a frequent "This is Good" reader then you already know of my admiration for this man, and if you're into local, folky, just plain awesome music, he is your guy. His lyrics are haunting and leave you feeling a strong connection to someone whom you don't even know, but you now feel like you do. His previous album "Versicolour" has had rave reviews and is on constant rotation at Casa de Pickard. Now I apologize to those off you who have had to hear me singing some unfamiliar song these past couple of weeks for "Land's End" has crawled into my brain and just will not let go, (it may have even knocked "altar boys" out of top position) so I've bee...

Here's the scenario people. You have a really great friend for a few months that you do everything with, you make each other friendship bracelets, get matching shirts at concerts, go on epic adventures, and then it just stops. No more talking, no more laughing, you see one another and there is no longer anything to say. Have you ever been there? I have, more than once actually. I find that's how my relationship with God is. We have these epic few months that are just filled with talking and worship and I can feel His work in my life, and then it just stops. Without any warning our little Honeymoon phase wears off and I'm back to slumming it with those people our mothers warned us about. I just don't get it. If I am enjoying such a fantastic and spiritual relationship with the One I love why ruin it? Why do I constantly sabotage every good situation? These questions get pondered for a little while as I slowly slip into despair, but then one of you (yes you!) tells me som...

My heart is aching dear friends, the reason: I haven't performed since August. The last thing I did was an impromptu Improv sesh at Imadene and I am yearning for more. I miss the theater, I miss getting lost in a script and turning into a completely different person, absorbing yourself into their quirks and movements, becoming someone new. "I'm like Tinkerbell, I need applause to live." That quote fits me to a T. Whether it be acting, singing, dancing, or just telling a good joke, I crave the recognition. To psychoanalyse myself I have a huge inferiority complex. Yearning for recognition I tend to look towards those around me, but shouldn't I be looking to God? His opinion is the only one that truly matters, shouldn't that be enough to sustain me. Frankly it should. But we live in such a corrupt world that it's not satisfying me. I hope and pray that one day it will. The world may not always love me for who I am, but red or yellow, black or white, I am pre...

So I am going to assume most of you have heard the song "Waiting on the World to Change" by John Mayer. I have a strong liking for this song and the message it brings forth to it's listeners. Some of the lyrics really strike a chord with me and get me amped up to change the world. But that's where it ends. My Ipod shuffles along to the next song which is probably about gettin crunk somewhere and that excitement for change flutters away as easily as it came along. Recently I was reading a friend's blog and she challenged us (ME) to memorize two bible verses a month that coincide with what we are currently experiencing. My first thoughts were of hesitation and that I could never do that (nothing new there) but as I marinated (one of Sarah's words) on this challenge I thought why not? If I fail I fail but at least I gave it a try. So I'm accepting this invitation and am going to give it everything I got. There's no time to sit around and wait for John May...

Well it's twenty eleven and it's time for change. In school you would always come back to your English class and have to write an essay on your New Years Resolution. Well I'm not in school and this isn't English class but here goes: My Resolution this year is to live for God. Now I know I've been "living" for God for the past eleven years or so but this is different. I am going to start actively pursuing a relationship with Him, and I want YOU to hold me accountable for that. I want to live every day as He would want me to. I am going to start doing Godly acts and am going to speak truth into people's lives when the opportunity presents itself. No more hiding! The fire has been lit under me and it's time. The clock is ticking people, can you hear it?