Thursday, April 21, 2011

we start downstairs and end up here (bell's palsy update)

Hello all, so things are going really well, the sun is shining and I am happy :)

I've now had bell's palsy for about three and a half weeks and things are going really well. I am no longer on the steroids they gave me and have been off them for just over a week and am feeling much better. My face is about 80% so I think I should have a full recovery in about another two weeks or so.

I go to the doctor again next week so they can track my progress and tell me for certain that my recovery is going well.

Thanks again to all of you for your prayers and thoughts, couldn't have done it without you

xoxo- Amy

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

It's the nature of the experiment, it's taking me in icrements.

Today I have to go to the dentist.

I hate the dentist.

Not just an ordinary hate, it's not like saying I hate broccoli, or I hate blue cheese. Every fibre of my being hates the dentist. Thinking about having to go actually makes me tear up, I start to tremble when I get in the chair and my breathing becomes very sharp and shallow. I hate the dentist!

I really don't know how this hatred came along, I have never had a truly traumatic situation there. I mean I've had a butt load of fillings and my wisdom teeth have been removed but nothing out of the ordinary.

Anyways, it just feels like it's going to be one of those days where nothing will go right. I'm bracing myself for the worse and hoping I don't get too hung up on it (hence the photo)

Hope all is well on your end.

Much love-- Amy

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

It's enough just to say, "I knew you well"...

"You say, that we're all tied up and wrapped around in useless states of mind, but at the same time we're still young, we have the time to realize that we were wrong"

Well people it's the time of year, Graduation season. I myself have already attended two graduating ceremonies and although I didn't even attend the school program, I got rather caught up in the overwhelming emotions.

It's always a sad situation when something comes to an end, you can't deny it, in every graduating speech it's always mentioned to look forward to the future and all the opportunity that is before you, and although the future is so bright ya gotta wear shades there is always that glass half empty view that something fantastic is coming to a close and you really don't know where things are going to go from here.

From a graduating class of people that could one day work for rock stars to another that had a rock star in attendance one thing was evident, these kids are going to go out and change the world, and I for one cannot wait for it to happen.

Best of luck to all you graduates of 2011, the world is yours, take grasp and don't let go.

Many Blessings-- Amy

Friday, April 15, 2011

What does it take to love without expecting something?

A few months ago a friend and fellow blogger at "A Looney Concept" posted a blog under the title of "How a hook-up can turn into love" to sum things up she had read an article in good ol' Cosmopolitan magazine that said something like random hook-ups are now socially acceptable and can turn into a lasting relationship for the stigma that follows them is no longer an issue. Nevertheless we both completely disagree with and are rather disgusted by this comment.

But me being me made a little simile with this statement by comparing it to our relationship with Christ. Now take this with a grain of salt here and hear me out cause I feel I'm about to make a semi-good point, either that or I'll just ramble for a while like usual.

Many people come to Christ in a random "Hook up" sort of way, let me explain: with there being so many events and musical festivals such as History Maker, Creationsfest, YouthQuake and the like many christian teens bring their non-christian friends hoping that their eyes and ears may be opened to the gospel. I can think of all the times I have invited close friends just hoping that they would leave with a closer understanding of God and hopefully an itch to start a relationship with Him. Many times the speaker at these events preaches a beautifully moving sermon that gets everyone amped up for Christ and excited to go forth into the world and spread His love. This is usually followed by an altar call where mass numbers of teens jump at the chance to accept Jesus into their hearts, and on occasion this is where that friend of yours says they want Jesus too. Thus the random hook- up.

Having no preconceived knowledge of Jesus or Christianity when hearing about all the love and the great life that they are missing out on they are instantly attracted to that and think why not? Spending one night with Christ to feel loved.

But how do we turn that hook up into a long lasting relationship?

In a similar article from an august 2010 issue of Marie Clare it says that this is possible as long as "[the people in said relationship] are willing to make a commitment."

Just to clarify I'm not saying that this is a waste of a relationship with Christ, frankly I get super excited when I witness these sorts of things happening and a saved soul is a saved soul in my eyes.

I may not be for casual hook-ups with people but hey a casual hook-up with Jesus sounds pretty fantastic with me, as long as your in it for the long haul I'll support you, we can even double date :)

ta-ta for now-- Amy

Friday, April 8, 2011

Until I feared I would lose it, I did not love reading. One does not love breathing...

-from Harper Lee (of To kill a Mockingbird fame)

I recently just finished reading a book called "Living Biblically" by A.J. Jacobs. It is a non-fiction book where A.J. an agnostic Jew decides to take the bible as literally as possible and follow every commandment within it. This leads to some rather comical situations and also a lot of learning and discovery for not just him for but all who read it.

Although Jacobs goes into this challenge wanting to learn and discover I ended up being taught so many things that I did not know.

I have read most of the bible but I am far from being able to recall each and every verse. Some people would then question how I could follow a faith without knowing everything it entails. Sure the bible is there for guidance and understanding of our Lord but I think Christianity is so much more than that, just like it's unhealthy to hoard yourself up inside and read books all day I think you need to take action in your faith instead of constantly being buried in the bible.

Thus bringing me back to this quote. Until I am no longer able to read I don't think I'll hunger for it the way I should. I take it for granted just like so many other things, and I don't think I'm alone in that.

Anywho, to end things off, if you're looking for a good book, and even if you are not a christian, you should check out "Living Biblically." Let me know what you get out of it, and if you have any books you think I should read post a comment :)

(The bible is already on the list :P)

Much love-- Yams

Thursday, April 7, 2011

A little worship never hurt no one.

Okay people so I go to a baptist church and things can be rather reserved during our worship service, we rarely even have anyone sit in the front row of seats if you know what I mean.

But the first church I ever went to was pretty rockin'. It was the Oasis Church (then known as Cowichan River Fellowship) they have their own house band known as "Friday's Cry." And they know how to put on a show.

As an eight year old kid I loved the loud music and the outbursts of hallelujahs and praises to our Lord, it didn't feel like an interruption it felt natural. So from time to time I like to let it out. SHOUT HALLELUJAH and raise my hands in holy reverence.

This song really brings me back to that and I can't help feel the Spirit just bursting through. Praise the Lord for He is good!

Monday, April 4, 2011

Good morning, you have Bell's Palsy!

hello all, so yesterday morning I woke up and couldn't move part of my mouth. Seriously. It looked like I either had a stroke or just received a filling for a cavity. Finding it rather comical I didn't think much of it. This morning I awoke hoping it would have gone away, unfortunately the symptoms have only worsened. I can not blink properly on my right side and my eye is constantly watering, I cannot move the right side of my mouth nor can I raise my eyebrow at all, picture bad botox!

Being the computer savvy person I am, I decided to google "Temporary facial paralysis" and found this which describes to a T what I have.

So I then decided to youtube it..... bad choice. Reading peoples comments some say they have had this for years!! Being a 19 year old girl is hard enough worrying about zits and hair and body size now I have to be concerned about the fact that my face doesn't move! I am freaking out a bit.

I have an appointment with the doctor on Thursday but until then I work the next three days! I may die of embarrassment. Hopefully I have a speedy recovery and this only lasts for a few weeks instead of months! Also my face may never go back to normal, pretty rad outcome right there, so please pray for peace of mind and comfort and a quick recovery.

And although I may be poking fun at this situation and that may be how I "cope" please don't make jokes cause this seriously sucks.

Love you all-- Amy

Friday, April 1, 2011

Scared shitless to leave home, and I don't want to go alone.

As I sit here knitting, reminiscing on better days, the rain is pounding on the skylight across the hall as Dan Mangan's "So much for Everyone" resounds throughout my humble abode. I feel odd today, not quite sure how to describe it, but I just felt like writing and didn't really have anything to say so this is the result of that.

The title of this blog is a line from that song and it is rather fitting. I yearn to leave this town and experience something new but I am so frightened to take that next step. I'm so comfortable in this boring rut of mine, yet I equally despise it. I'm extremely confused. I feel as if I am just existing and not really living, and that's no life to have. Yet in the same sense I don't really know if I'm doing things correctly. God has this pre-determined path for us and how the heck are we supposed to know if we are where we are supposed to be or not. I don't know where I'm going with this.

Frankly I'm tired of talking about myself and over thinking things.

I want to hear from you and know what is going on in your lives. Blogs are a very vain hobby to have for you constantly get caught up in amounts of views and comments and are (in my case) writing about yourself. It's a scary thing to broadcast yourself for all the world to see yet I cannot get enough of it.

But it's your turn now, Dan may be saying "So much for everyone" but without you it would be "So much for Amy" so fill me in people, let me see you instead of constantly seeing myself.

kiss kiss- Amy