Friday, January 20, 2012

Already I'm so lonesome....

....I could die

OK that may be a bit of an overstatement, but today is the day folks. My dearest mate is departing for the wonderful land of Aus.

Although my heart aches at the thought of all the fun she will be having without me I must say jealousy is not the emotion that I feel.

We all have that one person in our lives that is always genuinely happy for you. Doesn't matter what minuscule thing you accomplished, they congratulate you. They don't care if you beat them in the race. If your art project turns out better than theirs they relish in that fact! Funny thing is you don't even think twice that they mean this from the bottom of their hearts because it is just second nature for them.

Well I am having one of those feelings. I am so happy and overjoyed for my friend. I can't help but smile when I think upon all the grand adventures she is going to have. Sure, I would love to do those things too but I can't help but think of how happy I am that she gets to do this.

Cassia, I know you will probably read this so let me just say again I am so glad that you get to embark on such a great journey. I know that the good Lord will be working in you in so many ways. I cannot wait for you to return so I can see the glorious woman that you are going to become. You deserve this, you earned it, now go out there and enjoy it!

Much love and Australian boys (need I say more ;) ?)

xoxo-- Amy

Monday, January 16, 2012

Stood on the mountain and I called your name.

Love me when I least deserve it....

...cause that is when I really need it.
- Swedish Proverb.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

I always will...

the girl that's been there for everyone else
needs someone to be there for her.

Hospital for the broken...

Now we all know that I, being the so-called "hipster" that I am, tend to get a little artsy from time to time.

One of my favourite, most cherished art forms is spoken word.

Now there are a select few that have cut right to my core, such as the "That line was so Gay," Chris Tse's "I'm sorry I'm a Christian," 'HypoChristian," "Maybe I need you," by Andrea Gibson, and last but not least "Shake the Dust" by Anis Mojani, the one I loved enough to get a tattoo of.

My friends knowing this about me jumped at the chance to share a new spoken word with me, this one is simply titled "Why I hate religion and love Jesus."

My Facebook newsfeed has been overwhelmed with people sharing this four minute long video which shows a young man eloquently speaking about religion vs. Jesus.

I was instantly hooked by the intense chamber music that starts the video off and once I started listening to the words he was speaking I knew one thing, that this is good!

Therefore I couldn't resist sharing it with you.

Much love and Jesus -- Amy

Monday, January 9, 2012

The rich smell of mahogany....

Groan.... I need to move.

Friday night involved me and a good pal going to my favourite Island city, Victoria, and spending a fantastic evening with a grand group of mates, but, alas, we had to return home and instead of getting a 'fix' from seeing my dearest friends I am now left missing them even more than before.

I've always been told that God places us in certain places at certain times and although I'd like to think Duncan needs me I can't help feeling a tad out of sorts when I think of all the things waiting for me elsewhere.

It's the age old situation of you don't know what you've got til it's gone and man have my eyes been opened to all I am missing out on.

I just keep imagining how much happier and satisfied with my life I would be if I could just have it my way, if I could just be around those who are dearest to me but then I realize even if I could have it my way I would always be wanting more for I will never be truly satisfied if I don't find satisfaction if God and God alone.

I mean it's not like I'm completely devoid of anything worthwhile here, it's just I have so much ambition for myself and I can't help feeling like a salmon that's too big for the Cowichan river.

Guess for now I'm just stuck with itchy feet and frequent malahat travels.

Much love and greener grass-- Amy

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

No turning back, no turning back....

Well it's been a while folks and for that I apologize, but nevertheless life has been uber cray cray as of late, let me fill you in.

Over the Christmas season my sister got engaged, moved to Edmonton, had a ridiculous trip getting there (she
drove with a less than agreeable car) and caused us all a brain aneurysm waiting to hear if she was alive or not, but nonetheless she made it and things are grand on her end.
As for me I feel like I am in a constant state of change, looking back on this year I feel like I have matured so much, just in decision making and how my brain formulates it's views on things is so evolved from the way I used to be and it's really neat to be able to recognize that.

But this wouldn't be a blog post without a few "this is good" moments so here are some recent ones...

on New years day I woke up intending to go up Mt. T with some pals of mine, I dressed the part, layering myself with moisture wicking materials that would keep me cool and warm. But, alas, I opened the door to my amigas only to notice their attire was not up to code. Wearing a jean skirt my pal Tor greeted me with a "change of plans, we're kidnapping you."

I did a quick change and off we were to Victoria for a little shopping and some catching up, we tried on ridiculous dresses and had a blast ending the trip with a visit to my bestest bud James, it was a great way to end the day.

That evening I went to the local Christian school to ring in the new year playing games and watching movies with some mates, after a intense dodge ball match and my team winning a game of three-on three basketball we retreated in to the high school to relax i
n front of the movie screen before the big moment.

After the movie finished we gathered in a circle as we usually do to pray and thank the Lord for all the glorious (and treacherous) moments from the past year and praised Him that looking forward there is so much hope and excitement to see what is in store for us all.

These words rang much truer than usual for me as a large group of men from "Teen Challenge" were there with us that night and as they are currently in recovery it touches my heart to hear about their hope and joy for their future.

As we closed with a harmonic "amen" one of the older gentleman wanted to sing a hymn, "I have decided to follow Jesus." Bless his soul my eyes filled with tears as these men of God poured out their hearts as they genuinely sang the verses, off-tune and out of key, it was one of the most beautiful renditions I have ever heard.

Last night we were graciously invited to a magnificent dinner at one of our friend's house, we walked in only to be overwhelmed by an array of glorious smells and as my stomach growled upon entrance I knew that this was going to be good!

There is a joke going on between them and my mother as the father has decided that I and his son are to marry, now what makes this even more hilarious is that he married a Hindi woman and this is her son and therefore it is a joke of an "arranged marriage, dowry included." Now I actually really like this guy, I'm not sure if he is on the joke but as we hugged goodbye I heard snickers in the background.

We will see what happens, but nevertheless I am apparently "chosen to be his."

Now as we have embarked on a new year I am constantly being asked about my "resolution" and as of now I only have one and I am pretty sure my close friends can guess what it is, I, Amy Pickard, am going to finally get my learners permit. It will happen.

Much love with no regrets-- Amy